Cultivating love

I don't know why it's so hard to get my love act together. Admittedly, I have been in a better mood for the last week, so that in and of itself is a step forward in my relationship. However, I still really need to work on my temper and criticism. I have been very remiss in showing physical affection to my husband and complimenting him. Nor have I planned a date night. Really, I'm a love slacker.

I think that my husband and I need to start with basics. We've been so focused on going, going, going for the past year that we don't know how to connect anymore. Or maybe it's just me.

Delia's gone to bed super early for the last few nights and Diego's dad is in the hospital which meant we had a lot of time together in the evenings. But, we just sat there on the couch, watching TV and surfing the internet. Not really talking. Not really connecting or interacting. I'm scared and frustrated all at the same time. I don't know what to do about it.

So, I went to bed at 9:30 the last two nights. It was GLORIOUS. But, of course, I was asleep by the time Diego came up to bed. So, I missed that chance to connect as well.

I need to give more attention to my relationship. Maybe the best thing to do is to write my resolutions out somewhere so I can really focus on them. Having them in front of my face so I can't ignore them or forget about them.

Hopefully I'll have a more positive update next week.